Convenient

“Convenient”

I do not want to be convenient

While you look for another lover

I do not want to be on the shelf

While you look to only please yourself

I do not want to be convenient

My heart failing in your hands

I do not want to dream of forever

When I’m just a string of your one night stands

You tell me that you care

And that you feel for me like no other

You call me almost every night

Gentle whispers tying me to the phone

You say you wished I’d hold you tight

That you are tired of being alone

I say I’ll come and be your man

And you tell me, no - stay at home

The waves of my soul keep crashing

Upon your cold and rock hewn walls

Hoping to wear your defenses down

So that your love may fully fall

Upon my shoulders and within my trust

To be embraced and nourished

But this hope is proving quite unjust

With my attention you will not be burdened

You warned me of your aloof affection

Even as your smile stole my imagination

You told me not to fall for you

You clearly said - no expectations

You said we would only be friends

While you planned my destinations

You had me kiss your waist and neck

And I listened to your passion

And I listened to your passion

And I listened to your passion

I said let me be your man

And you told me, no – please go home

I do not want to be convenient

While you look for another lover

I do not want to be on the shelf

While you look to only please yourself

I do not want to be convenient

My heart failing in your hands

I do not want to dream of forever

When I’m just a string of your one night stands

September 2011